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Disregard the months that have passed ... But then again i havent even made public this blog at the time of typing...why?? Fear. Fear of what you may ask...acceptance, self doubt, unworthyness, gramatical not goodness lol. I'm done with that though, and I want to ecourage you to over come your fears as well!! Yesterday was a very busy morning. I thought I had a hair appointment at 1pm so I got up at the crack of dawn and started making my sourdough english muffins ( I have a cottage bakery ;) I turned on a Christine Caine podcast about trusting God without fear while I rolled away on my muffins. There had been a calling financially I knew God placed on my heart about 2 weeks ago but out of fear of Gods provision or lack there of I had been putting it off and this message was like a punch in the gut to GET. IT. TOGETHER. So i did...and let me just say what a blessing it is to bless someone and to truly say "OK God, I trust you."

Continuing on - While my muffins were proofing I also mowed the yard, which is like 3 acres, with my hairnet in place because of said hair appointment. I then showered and touched base with my missionaries - I will speak more on this another day - and had plans to take the guys lunch (we own and operate a Water Well Drilling Co.) I try to do this on my day off from my nursing job and then meet and pour into two friends, one new & one old. Well it all began to fall apart when at 11:15 my hair lady messaged me to reschedule my missed appointment for 11am... really. Surprisingly though that was the first breath of the day ( and i saved $120 so I can have grey hair for a couple more weeks I supose). I did deliver lunch and met with my sweet friend who also has lost a child to infant drowning and is now expecting her third post loss, God is good. I ran home to change and get ready for meeting numero dos which was planned to be a workout - upon confirming we rescheduled... so now I had 2 1/2 hrs till my next commitment of the day - bread delivery!

So with a nudge from the Holy Spirit I grabbed my two daily devotionals, which had been sitting abandoned on my night stand for over a week and my Bible, my sword! Let me just start this part by saying - GOD IS SO COOL!! Both devos tied pretty phenominally together. One was on resting in the Lord and leaning not on our own understanding, the second was about slowing down, not rushing through the list of to dos but instead putting God at the top of that list and allowing HIM to actually make the list. You see nothing in my day was bad, but it was all things I had placed on myself and it wasnt until God cancelled a couple things that I could breath and then sit down with Him. It also spoke about slowing down so we can see where and how God wants to use us and not feeling like we have to rush around trying to check all the boxs at one time - what it said exactly was

The faster we move, the faster we make mistakes

You dont have to have it all figured out right now

You dont have to compare yourself to, or rush ahead of the pack

You dont have to be in a hurry

You dont have to make things happen in your own strength even if you feel behind

Instead of anxiously striving in your own effort, let us follow Gods lead even if its slow. Lets ask God for the grace to slow down when every part of us wants to speed up, and realize that moving slowly and trusting Gods timing could be exactly His will for us right now, and in His perfect will we can find rest!

As I read these words they spoke over my day, over my mind, over my body and over my heart. I was reminded also of the word God gave me when He gave me this blog idea - DWELL.

Although my day didnt go exactly as planned it went exactly as HE planned. I was thankful for the time that magically apeard and that He met me there, He brought me there...to His feet, to His presence. I am thankful to a God who loves me and makes me lie down in green pastures. I pray we as a culture, especially a culture of women can slow down and find rest in the midst of our Creator. May we be in the moment...with Him, as He makes way our path and the way we should go. May we have a willing heart and love for others as we're molded by His hands. I think Im ok with this kind of cancel culture...more of You, less of me.

Be blessed friends!

-Ashley